my mind,my words,my own.

I miss you.

2009-03-29T14:52:00.000-07:00

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine,
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

Im not sure it was written by who, but it was given to me by Nor Dayana.

For lost in time.

2009-03-23T01:05:00.000-07:00

Step up and change things,
Fly beyond the lights and see what’s within,
Take what’s yours and ignore.

Save yourself, don’t lie,
For your only running from yourself,
Set free, be free

Take this moment to change it,
Take this hand and don’t let go,
Look through and tell me what’s missing.

Say within,
For the risk you take,
For it, maybe the sun shines brighter.
You're not alone, live to tell.

Flee

2009-03-12T05:12:00.001-07:00

Purge into the light,
Where what you’ll see is different,
Where what you’ll understand maybe isn’t factual.

Lose yourself,
Let your wits sleep,
Let the moment make the judgment,
Let go.

Fell into distinction,
Don’t blame others,
For the foul is your own,
Breath, let go.

I can’t seems to find myself here,
I can’t seems to know it here,
This mind judgment isn’t what I wanted.

So,come away with me?

When it rains.

2009-03-01T07:57:00.001-08:00

When it rains,
The thoughts, the reminiscences, the moments,
The other side of my behavior comes around,
And all the faction around me, suddenly stop.

When it rains,
Everything seems to be so bitter,
Even this hot cup of tea won’t kill the shivering,
Even the burning of this cigs won’t do any turns.

When it rains,
Just say it again and mean it,
Look through me and mean it,
For every reason, I want to believe it,
For if I don’t, holding you again will be the hardest part of it.

When it rains,
Anxious inside always shows,
Any how I try to ignore,
It again takes me all over.

you can take your time,
take my time.

You

2009-02-26T00:39:00.000-08:00

You
In my dreams you’re the one hold me firmly when I’m falling,
In my days you’re the one my eyes want to feed to each hour,
In my night you’re the one my hands want to hold until im falling again.
You

You
The smile you carved brings happiness to my day,
The laugh you show brings bliss to my day,
The cuddle you gave brings life to my spirit.
You

You
Scared I am for sometimes,
Sometimes when my wrong doing makes you sad,
For sometimes I can’t give you what I could,
For sometimes I spoke the wrong words,
For sometimes I did the wrong doings,
Scared that I’ll shiver that heart of yours,
You

You
Making you smile makes me smile,
Making you happy makes me happy,
You

You
I won’t trade you for whatever thing,
Even if it’s for the world,
Even if it’s for anything,
You

Take me where I can be gone,
For I don’t mind,
If im lost with you,
If it's in your pearly eyes im falling,
For somehow, someway, it’s the place where I want to be lost in,
You

Hey, im on the other side.

2009-02-25T08:23:00.002-08:00

Throwing roses into the damp,
Defying gravity, purging into self,
No, it’s not what I want.

Trying to be in the core when you know it’s not your place,
Doing something you abhorrence fake smiles,
Your standing, floating, breathing to somewhere you’re not sure of,
No, it’s not what I want.

Shivering cold, dead memories,
Realize to the time you can’t get,
Trading you’re precious for spaces,
Unrealized, you have nothing.
No, it’s not what I want.

Place me somewhere I can’t see,
I won’t be, I can’t be,
For what you want me to be, is something I can’t become,
For what I’ve become, is something I can't foresee.

Hold

2009-02-25T08:23:00.001-08:00

It’s said that words doesn’t bring any meaning this moment,
Where now everything seems to move in slow shift,
And you’re standing in a vortex,
Trying to see what she is seeing,
Hoping in the flash moment you could say the right words,
Hold.

Trying to utter something,
Hold.
Trying to move your fingers,
Hold.
Seeing things, incapable to do any,
Hold.

With open eyes u can’t see anything, pitch black.
There she is in front of you, still you’re wondering around in circles,
Trying to reach with silence voice,

Hold.

Come on, Ballad.

2009-02-25T08:20:00.000-08:00

Sometime you look at me but you don’t see me,
Sometime you touch me but you’re not holding me,
Sometime how I wish I could confront you, uphold you with everything,

Until the red moon comes,
Shatter me, vibrate me, grip me, and take me over,
For I never thought ill change this outlook of mine again,
For you don’t know how you change me inside,
How you impaired me inside.

Dance till this madness stop,
For I won’t show,
Take my judgment away,
Move me the way you never know,
Carry on, carry on dancing.

When the moonlight shine at this scattered pain,
Look behind twice, for maybe,
Maybe, everything is pause.

kiri

2006-06-13T14:00:00.000-07:00

You complete my fate
the world unwinds inside of me
You complete my fate
the halo crawls away
you refill my place

come and save me
tell me and take the wine and take my hand and fly
come and save me..

kiri.

undescribe feellings..

2006-02-08T04:11:00.000-08:00

im lost,
lost within the answer,
lost within the words,
lost in my own..

shaky as my hand,
looking at nothing,
hoping at nothing,
covered fear..

crawling from my tent,
searching in the blank,
within the black i try to see,
without my eyes i try to flee..

mata cermin

2005-11-16T12:54:00.000-08:00

sebuah pemberian
mata itu satu nikmat
melihat dilihat terlihat...

namun apakah yang kita lihat ini sesuatu yang benar
adakah ianya sesuatu yang teguh
mungkin yang dilihat bukan sesuatu yang dapat ditafsir
oleh mata lain yang memandang..?

Hidup..

2005-09-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

Hidup.
Bernafas,bergerak.
Satu keajaiban ianya.
seperti celikan mata,
ajaib.

Hidup,
sampai sekarang aku mencari erti kehidupan,
perlbagai definasi kehidupan yang diberitahu,
secara kompleks dan mudah,
namun bukan makna 'hidup' bagiku.

Hidup,
mungkin kehidupan ini satu cabaran,
mungkin kehidupan ini satu rahmat,
mungkin mungkin..

Hidup,
saketika bersama rakan tauliah aku melihat,
kehidupan mereka masing-masing,
lain dengan yang lain,
setiap insan mempunyai hidup yang nyata berbeza,
ajaib.

Hidup,
ini bukan macam dalam game,
kehidupan kita bukan ditentukan oleh sesiapa,
kita sendiri yang tentukan,
nasib tidak terletak ditangan orang lain,
kita sendiri.

barangkali ini kehidupan,
penuh dengan panorama,
sentiasa berbekal dengan situasi berbeza,
namun kita tentukan,

ingin...

2005-08-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

Semalam,
hari ini dan esok,
Penantianku semakin desak,
Setiap detik aku dambar,
Potretmu selalu di sisiku,
Merenungku,
Menjelingku,
Memberiku perasaan gentar,
bagai hendak ditiup angin ahmar,
Kaget terasa hendak kulari,
Namun tak berdaya,
Disini bersama asap rokok ku menanti,
Hidupku yang kian suram,
Menyejukkan bahang perassanku,
Aku bersembunyi dicelah pohon curam,
menanti terbitnya pelangi di hati ini.

seketika..

2005-08-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

sejenak termenung,
diri terasa kosong,
sepi,tak berkata,
neon di dinding terasa semakin kelam,
udara bagaikan terhenti,
hanya bunyi angin terdengar,
berbunyi seperti menyanyi,
terasa hidup ini "hidup" seketika,
namun ia kembali perlahan,
sunyi kembali....